Auditions are swirling in my head. The self imposed pressure and drive wears me down. I’m continually working on letting go after I walk out of that room. I did the best I can. I learn along the way, soak up little clues about how I could prepare better each time, bring the words to life – just live in that world while I’m in front of the camera. While I can’t book everything, I will work again. My new mantra is I don’t need everybody’s approval, not even anybody’s. That seems to remove the constriction, the worry that I’m being judged. Then I can just be free to express and explore moment by moment and that’s the sort of thing that actually attracts approval. Funny that. I’m tired of the know-it-alls who can’t see their version of the “facts” is only true from their own perspective, and not everyone else’s. “You see the world not as it is, but as you are.” I will choose and create who I am. I’m tired of the pompous and over inflated egos. I’m over the bull shit. I don’t need them or their approval. Onward.
Here’s the latest Project. I thought a lot of the funny stuff was chopped because they had to fit in all the tags and coupon info. Oh Well. Cheers!