Oh what have I been up to? Let me some up 4 months of blogster laziness in one blog post, because I’m efficient like that.  I took a beginners stand up class at Flappers in Burbank in December.  It was well received, yet I don’t know if I am in love with Stand Up. Maybe the virus is still incubating in my blood, not sure yet. Here’s the Youtube link I booked a part on Happy Endings, speaking in my native tongue.  It was season 2, Episode 17 “The Kerkovich Way.”  I was Senka Kerkovich. One line and one funny bit were chopped out to make room for cholesterol medication commercials.  I’d imbed the scene here, but am worried about … Continue reading →

An informative evening, with witty contributions from commercial agent Mark Measures and excellent question referee Stuart K Robinson (acting coach). The evening was defined under the premise of telling us the hard truth, not just what we want to hear, so that we know what courses of action we have to take and the work we have to put in – in order to build a career and obtain top representation.  If an agent tells you “we have too many of your type” they’re just not that into you. In today’s saturated and super competitive market there are fewer parts to go around. Most movie productions do not rely on breakdowns, offers are already out for most of the parts … Continue reading →

It’s been call back city lately.  I’m so over due for a booking it’s retarded.  My agent agrees.  I constantly freak out she’s going to drop me.  I decided a few weeks ago to start a video blog about my auditions.  Episode 1 and 2 are up on my Youtube Channel.  Episode 3 will be uploaded tonight.  Episode 4 will be shot tomorrow, as I have a call back for Great Clips and Cathi Carlton casting in Santa Monica.  This is turning out to be pretty fun.  However I’m still learning the fine details of shooting with an Iphone and editing in IMovie.  I like this much better than writing, because I get to be on camera and improvise I … Continue reading →

I’m stuck on the idea that I need to have more successes in order to have something to write about.  I feel like my journaling should be inspiring or informative, I guess I haven’t been feeling too inspired or that I have something to offer in the last few months.  I’ve become very tired of listing what I’ve gone out to audition for  – this or that, had a callback for so-and-so and was on avail for that and that other awesome commercial, but did not get it.  I did do a play in May and June called Lavender Love that received mostly horrible reviews.  I learned a lot about dealing with reviews, and that critics are critics because they … Continue reading →

I woke up at 5:30am today once again. I think I like the early morning schedule, but it’s also necessary so that I can put in enough hours at work and still get to 3 auditions in a day. I haven’t worked out for 2 days though, after I said I would do it 6 days a week until I saw the results I wanted, then just work out for maintenance. There should be time for power yoga this evening, I have to make the time. It’s really amazing how you can shift your relationship to time and how much you can actually do each day when you push through excuses and other lazy tendencies. You can also do it … Continue reading →

How did the holidays sneak up so quickly? Has my blog really been down since August? Wow. I think it’s almost fully functional again, it’s still being tweaked. Well, I’ve been on all kinds of lovely auditions in the last 3 months. It’s so far a 7 month dry streak. Yes, yes everyone’s career ebbs and flows. Those ebbs, I’m still struggling to deal with them. Then someone named OSHO said “Don’t seek, don’t search, don’t ask, don’t knock, don’t demand–relax. If you relax it comes. If you relax it is there.” Yeah, easy for the type B personalities maybe. This is a little bit hard, especially after 7 months of relaxing. Can I at least get excited? The latest … Continue reading →

Who reads this shit anyway? I pour my heart out with experiences and advice and do not know if it’s landing anywhere for anybody in any kind of useful way. I can’t tell by the comments I receive because most of the ones I receive are spam. Haha. But do I care who’s reading it? All I can do is carry on if I enjoy doing it whenever I get around to it. I have not written in a really long time by my standards. OK. Now that I’m done bitching about something that may or may not be meaningless, I’ll catch you (whoever you are) up on what’s going on. I’m working really hard on my focus. That means … Continue reading →

Auditions are swirling in my head.  The self imposed pressure and drive wears me down.   I’m continually working on letting go after I walk out of that room.  I did the best I can.  I learn along the way, soak up little clues about how I could prepare better each time, bring the words to life – just live in that world while I’m in front of the camera.  While I can’t book everything, I will work again.  My new mantra is I don’t need everybody’s approval, not even anybody’s.  That seems to remove the constriction, the worry that I’m being judged. Then I can just be free to express and explore moment by moment and that’s the sort of … Continue reading →

I just read a letter to actors about the current state of show business by James J. Jones, of The Premier Talent Group  http://markatteberry.blogspot.com/ According to Mr. Jones, I  fit into the category of  “developmental or sometimes working” actor.  Apparently,  it is the most  not happening and unwanted group to be in the last couple of years.  It may come as no surprise that if you are in this group, finding representation, specifically theatrical representation, has been quite a challenge.  Agents and Casting Directors don’t have the time to take chances.   The top names, and working actors are cycling through the majority of the work and leaving us out.  This reality may cause an actor to want to yell “Bull … Continue reading →