Heart’s a Flutter. “Keep calm and carry on” as the Brits said in 1939.
Monday, February 22nd, 2010 | Uncategorized
12 days between blogs, not that bad but I’d like to update more often and share what’s going on. I’m not sure how many actors or other folks have checked out my blog. I really am hoping that some actors who are starting out or are somewhere else along their journey can get some useful tidbits about what it takes and what it’s like to be an actor in Los Angeles, at least from my point of view and my journey. I have to say again that It’s been a wonderful start to 2010 and that I’m very grateful. The last few weeks, however, have brought episodes of anxiety, almost like a feeling of doom, heart palpitations, tightness in the chest on various occasions after exercise, or even when I was sitting around doing nothing. Yes, I have addressed it with a Doctor. The ECG I had at Urgent Care at Kaiser last Thursday and all else says the ticker is just fine. Such drama, I know! I’m not a hypochondriac, I swear. It’s better to be safe than sorry and get yourself checked out, right? Absolutely. It’s more like I’m driving myself to develop these symptoms because I’m putting myself under so much pressure. You see, I’m an expert at that, someone who finished their Master’s Degree in 4.5 years total in College, that’s another story… Today I read a perfect quote to address the state of mind I’ve found myself in the last couple of weeks, “Relax and enjoy life. Know that whatever you need is revealed to you in the perfect time space sequence.” via Twitter @LouiseHay . Exactly. When I am at peace and in action, enjoying the moment and enjoying my life things just flow and keep happening. Some how I fell out of that zone. I think it’s only natural to have highs and lows. The ridiculous thing that has happened because the successes have piled up, is that I’ve subconsciously chosen to “freak out” about it. Sounds to me like a form of subconscious self-sabotage. Now I can’t be having any of that. I’m coming up on my 9 year anniversary in Los Angeles this coming March 1st. I didn’t struggle this long and bust my butt so hard to start having anxiety/panic attacks about success and what’s next on the Horizon. Just Breathe. Out, damn self doubt! You know, William Shakespeare had a lot of brilliant quotes, one of which is “Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt” So, let me move on from the drama and recap auditions and activities since my last blog entry.
February 10
Edwards Lava Cake Audition at Pamela Starks Casting.
I thought it went really well, I have no idea when Call Backs are!
February 17 – 2 auditions
Texting While Driving PSA at Francine Selkirk Casting.
I don’t know how it went and I’ll leave it at that.
Cox Cable Commercial Audition at Susan Turner Casting
I rocked this. Had to memorize about 7 lines and improvise, while still making sure I included the memorized lines. I really let go and trusted myself on this one. Susan, the casting director, clapped when I was done. She has been calling me in again and again, I love her! I didn’t even get a callback for this one. Hahahah!!! In my defense, they were looking for a “Queen Latifah” type character and also called in a lot of African American ladies. So most likely they did not go for the skinny white chicks. And that is OK.
Last Friday I researched the 44 casting directors on my target list from my 2010 Goal sheet and started a fresh new casting director label sheet. I also included casting directors that are currently casting feature films. The total number comes to 77 - post cards were mailed out on Friday, mentioned the Under 5 booking on “Jon Benjamin Has a Van.” Pilot. I’m intending to get in on some more Pilot Season Action! YEAH. Tonight is my last class in ongoing Fundamentals at Margie Haber Studios. I’ve signed up for the Intermediate Fundamentals Intensive starting in late March. That should continue to polish my “A” game.
Now back to breathing and thinking about nothing.
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1 Comment to Heart’s a Flutter. “Keep calm and carry on” as the Brits said in 1939.
Queen Latifah is both a great singer and actress, i love this girl.;~.
June 17, 2010